I was born with severe scoliosis and a heart condition. I didn't grow very well when I was young. When I was 22 months old, the doctor fused my spine, and this prevented my torso from growing, but it also stopped me from getting even more crooked.
I wish I was skinny again.
When i was age 12/13 I was a size 0 or 1.
People would tell me i was the skinniest person they know.
I wasn't anorexic but people thought I was. I loved the attention I got.
As I got older I gained slight weight.
All through high school I was a size 3. It wasn't until college, at 18 that I gained a bunch of weight.
I went away to college and went up to a size 7. I was eating the same amount of food. I didn't know why I gained weight.
Currently at 20, I am a size 9 and I feel like I'm getting fatter. I try to not eat as much but it doesn't do anything.
I want to pretend that I like my body, but I look back at pictures of myself in high school and get sad. I miss being able to look good in a bikini and have a totally flat stomach.
Even when I was skinny I had no control over eating habits. I would snack on food when I was bored.
I know I am NOT fat but I feel like I am because I'm gaining so much weight.
I'm scared the older I get that I will end up fat.
I wish one day I will gain more control.
I'm 5'9'', 146 pounds, size 9, shirt size M.