My confidence has always been a roller-coaster. I remember always being overweight and short. It runs in my family. I was in the sixth grade when I noticed that I was a little bit heavier than the other kids. I couldn't wear kid uniform pants so I had to get men's Dickie's because they were the only things that fit. At one point I had this bathing suit that I would wear under my uniform, EVERYDAY, because it smoothed out the lumpiness of my body.
I am the one in black. I don't even know where it started. The worst thing in my life and I don't even know how it started. I don't even have a starting point OR an ending point.
When I was growing up, as for many people, food was a reward and a comfort. The scales slowly crept up and my body was so out of balance I couldn't tell if I was hungry or full - it felt the same to me. At 18 I was clinically obese and hated the way I looked.
I'm from Finland and I was born 1969. I have never had any pregnancies, so my body tells mostly how I eat and how I exercise.
Life is too short... There are some amazing stories of extremely beautiful women on this site who don't see the same staring back in the mirror. It is sad that, as women, our self worth has come to be tied directly to what pant size we fit into. I grew up in a family full of naturally tall and large women. These were BEAUTIFUL women, full of strength and confidence.
I see so many people on this site saying they're too fat or too thin. But not many people who want both, like me. I feel like the epitome of inadequate. I'm not thin, I'm not fat, I don't have many curves, but I'm also not a stick.
I have always had a love-hate relationship with food. I love to eat. I love the way it tastes and I love the way I feel while I am eating. I also hate the way I feel after I eat. My battle with my weight started as a young child. We were never allowed to have "junk food" in the house, so when my dad brought in the occasional treat, it was gone in a matter of seconds.
I'm on a crusade to know and to show women what "real" bodies look like. We don't know. How is it that we don't know?!! We have rarely ever seen images of women at our own weights, with real curves and real breasts and no photoshop.
The My Body Gallery project needs real Women! We need your help to develop the project and build a collection of photos that will help more women see themselves more clearly. Upload a picture of your full body. Our photo submission process also allows you to block out part of the image to protect your identity, if you wish. Please note that you must be 18 to upload a photo.