I've always been taller than most girls and always weighed more than them but it never bothered me until high school.
My first boyfriend would always tell me how I was too big or not pretty enough. It eventually got drilled into my head that it was true.
It's been 5 years ago but I still feel like that. I look down at my thighs and see how big they are and I just remember him telling me that over and over.
Now I have a boyfriend who doesn't understand why I feel this way but it's just not something I can explain.
I hope that one day I can eventually be happy with myself again. It's a process that I am working through everyday. I know it won't be easy but I want to love myself again without hating myself for not being able to be 110 pounds again.
