I am always thinking about my weight or food.
Food makes me happy and I love cooking healthy and unhealthy food.
I want to be happy with my body but it is so hard to look in the mirror and not see a fat face, fat arms, pretty much a line backer.
I don't like to think like this but it is hard to change my way of thinking. I am working on changing the ideal body I think I need and perception that people only like skinny people.
I am working on eating healthier and to stop looking at models that must work hard at staying that thin.
I hope to start thinking about what's really important in life, like having fun and hanging with friends and family and stop all the worrying.
I don't talk to anyone about this, it's too embarrassing. Thanks for listening.